Current mood:

blah

Feelings of meh
Sometimes I think I want certain feelings back about some things. And then when I have them back I really don't want them. This post isn't about anything in particular other than me being in one of those thinking about stuff moods where I don't feel particularly like myself.

It's a bit annoying because I'll think about past experiences and kind of miss them. Even though there's sometimes bad ones mixed in, I wonder why that is? Nothing truly good comes from these situations but I miss them just the same. I know I'm being really vague, I'm doing that on purpose really just for the sake of not having to go into past details of stuff that happened forever ago now. It's all stuff that has been posted about before anyway.

Another thing that I've been wondering, lord knows why I've been wondering it. But I've been wondering what sort of an impact I make upon people in their lives. Is it a good or bad thing? And given the people I know and care about and whom I talk to how do they think of me? What is it that people see in me that they like so much? If anything in particular anyway. I can't really see myself from a third person point of view to see what it is about myself that others may find appealing in a friend or more. I'm not sure what got me thinking on this. I think I was just thinking of myself and wondered if I was a good person/friend or not? I mean of course I know the answer (I hope) but my brain is just nagging on it for no apparent reason and since I've been kind of meh it doesn't help my mood any.

Anyhow I suppose I should head to bed. Goodnight all!